Thoughts & feelings

I've learnt something new about myself that I am curious to know if anyone else feels like this...

It drives me crazy not being able to know someone else's thoughts and feelings, for one does not always reveal their innermost thoughts. Some barely even scrape the surface. Why can't people just tell u word by word what they are thinking without filtering anything? Why can't they say what they want to without rearranging their sentences and replacing words in their mind? Just say it like it is..

Me : What's wrong??
(Someone) : Nothing..

Ever been in this situation when you can sense that the person you are talking to is hiding something? To me its just really frustrating that people can't just open up and tell me what is wrong. I may not be able to help but at the very least I know I've tried. I may not understand what you are going through but at the very least you know you have someone who always got your back. I also realised its much easier to not live in a world of lies. Why not open up? I know its extremely hard but I'm sure that the person will feel much better after doing so. Persuasion never works here either. Its really annoying. I may have not yet earn the rights to know every one's/your thoughts but I learnt from someone that its much much easier telling a stranger your thoughts and the obstacles that you are facing rather than tell it to your friends. No offence to anyone, but friends tend to judge us more. I mean true friends will remain with you through thick and thin and will also be generous in their thoughts. To those who has true friends, treasure them beyond all the treasure in the world for they are worth more than all those.

As for feelings, it drives me crazy to not know how that person is feeling. Imagine telling someone something and not know how that person is taking the news. Its equally frustrating as to not knowing that person's thoughts. If you are mad/sad/unhappy/depressed and so on, why not just say it out? Why not express? Just say " I'm feeling furious now because of.. " Why instead tell someone.. "Oh no, I'm fine". One more thing, the word fine brings no meaning. It does not mean good nor bad. Can't people say " I'm good" or "No, today was bad" rather than "I'm fine"? Sit and think now, what does the word fine actually mean? If we are of the same perspective you'll come up with nothing..

So clear my head and be rid of all these thoughts, i found out that running and reading helps. Running allows you to pound all your thoughts and feelings into the steady rhythm that you run. Reading also helps cause it distracts your mind and allows you to not think about the stuff you don't want to.

This post is a little weird but its different from everyone else's. Maybe I do think way toooo much.. (at least that is what most of my friends say)