Sunday, May 17, 2009

Hmm.. Love?

This is such a random post but then again she challenged me to do it so here it is..
On labour day, 1st May my wonderful and most dedicated school organised a ' Student Excellence Camp' to improve and increase our knowledge about PMR and SPM subjects. Being a student who falls under one of these categorises, I attended this camp and sadly found it to be very boring. However the only thing I learnt that was of use to me is this.

The English instructor whose name i fail to remember said this:-
"To write a good English essay, one must use all your senses. Write about how that person feels, sees, smells, tastes and also hears"

So here it is..
My first attempt to use what he taught us. Someone gave me this title..

"My Lover"

The sight of him in his short khaki surf pants and Hawaiian shirt brought my heart racing. The bright coloured shirt he wore made him look stunningly handsome. He shook his wet hazel-brown hair and ruffled it as he stepped into the room. His baby blue eyes twinkled with happiness as he stared straight at me making my heart melt. "Hey, miss me?" he murmured as he embraced me in a bear-like hug. I failed to answer as his masculine cologne wafted to my nose making it impossible to think of anything else. His slighty sweaty yet spicy aroma made me desire his touch. He smiled mischieviously as I stroked his hair and slowly caress his face. He stared at me for a moment before bending forward to plant his beautifully shaped lips on mine. My mind when blank and all questions were forgotton as his warm skin made contact with me for all I could think about was the absolutely perfect man that was holding me in his arms.

* I hope it's not too much. I kind of wrote it in school but edited it a lil here and there*

Saturday, May 9, 2009

Leaving..

I can't believe it..
I can't accept it..
I refuse to comprehend it..
I will not listen to what people around me are saying..

I will not leave..

Haven't we always been told that we get to make decision in our lives?

Well i want mine. Mine is to not leave. But will they accept my choice? How can u expect me to leave when I've enjoyed myself, suffered, went thorough up and downs and found the very best friend in the world there?

The choices u all have given me is only 2 options. Have u guys ever stop to think that i want neither choices? One to go to Singapore and the other to Bj..? Can I not stay where i am? Why is where i am not not good enough?

The reason no one can fetch you or you've got no transportation back is not enough for me.. I cannot understand and i refuse to take that as your reason. How can u all have the heart to tear me away from my 2nd home? One i've already spent 3 years in.. One i love more than anything right now..

Do u all know how much it hurts for me to know my time is limited with the people i never wanna ever lose? How hard it is to spend time with them everyday thinking this may be the last time we ever do something like this? To talk to seniors who I may not even see anymore after this? To hold high posts that people congratulate me about only to lose it when i leave? How difficult it is for me to spend time with them and get closer to them and to feel so attached to them only to be torn away to be in a whole new alien-ish world?

I wonder deep inside me how you all can have the heart to do so.. "Its for your own good," they say.. How can it be for my own good when it hurts so much and causes me so much pain? My time is so limited yet I never wanna leave..

I pray day and night that you will not take me away...
I hope..

The night is always darker before dawn..
Let's just hope for this time its the same..

Please please please I beg you..
Don't take me away..

* I will not take any questions/comments or anything about this post*